The future haunts with memories
That I could never have
And hope is just a stranger
Wondering how it got so bad
(via sometimesiwonderif)
Now I’m not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
(via bluesbayou)
Tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us.
These, our bodies, possessed by light.
Tell me we’ll never get used to it.Scheherazade | Richard Siken
And now at last it comes. You will give me the Ring freely! In place of the Dark Lord you will set up a Queen. And I shall not be dark, but beautiful and terrible as the Morning and the Night! Fair as the Sea and the Sun and the Snow upon the Mountain! Dreadful as the Storm and the Lightning! Stronger than the foundations of the earth. All shall love me and despair!
- The Fellowship of the Ring
Alright, bear with me here because this is the parallel I keep coming up with. I keep seeing people say “season six Willow” and yeah maybe that’s true (although the army man in the Impala was a yellow crayon moment if I ever saw one, and you can only have so many of those in one show so I hope he’s not S6!Willow) but let’s go with something a little nearer to Dean’s heart (not that I doubt Dean has watched Buffy, I mean, it’s got Sarah Michelle Gellar). But when I watched this scene my first thought was the scene in LotR when Frodo offers the Ring to Galadriel. She tells him what would happen if she took it: she would use it, intending to do good, but the power would twist her until she became something else, something beautiful but terrible. For a moment, we see what that something else is, and it’s the same thing that had happened to those before her who took the Ring, even out of honor rather than selfishness.
The difference between Galadriel and Castiel is that she doesn’t accept the power offered to her. But I think it makes sense that Castiel did. I was saying to Ayana earlier, Castiel is an addict. We’ve been drawing parallels between S4!Sam and S6!Castiel for a while, so it doesn’t come as a surprise. He was addicted to following orders, addicted to Dean (I don’t mean this in a shipping way—look at his reaction to what he saw as Dean’s “betrayal” when he intended to say yes to Michael), addicted to drugs and sex in 2014… why not power? Why not free will? He takes the souls with good intentions, but like those before him, it twists him into something else, something beautiful but terrible.
